And Then Repeat

This song was written during the Covid-19 lockdown period and in the final stages of my wife’s pregnancy before our daughter Edi was born. We’d been watching the BBC Three adaptation of the Sally Rooney novel ‘Normal People’ when I commented that the characters seemed so grown up for their age. All of the people I know in their thirties and forties with young children are not grown up at all and my parents generation are all bonkers. Looking back to my early twenties at uni, playing in bands and DJing in clubs, I was really grown up too. Loads of very serious conversations putting the world to rights and lots of potential yet to be realised. What they don’t tell you is, like me, you might end up being really silly in a world that is really wrong. Thinking about being locked down I realised other than stopping all my gigging and seeing my friends, it didn’t have that much of an effect on my life and with little Edi on her way, it was quite useful as a soft preparation for losing our lives. Back in my twenties I was out every single night and that in part made me who I am today. If that version of me had been locked down, I would have lost my mind and suddenly I kind of missed that person and the uncertainty of who he would become. Everything in my life is better now and I wouldn’t change it for the world, but it is set in stone. I know who I am and I'm better off for it, but it's far less exciting. Of course it will all be repeated by my daughter and other children that may follow and although I’m really excited for them, I’m bloody scared. Please play the track and then repeat.